am i ever gonna allow myself to relax ever

[believersneverdie]

i had a pretty chill day today. woke up at 7:30am and actually felt good about it, a few hours later had brunch with my gf and everything went really well. the weather was hot as hell, but at least the sky was pretty.. the afternoon came and went and it wasnt anything out of the ordinary, but for some reason im feeling anxious now, at 2:06am. im trying to sleep but i cant, i feel restless and my thoughts are annoying me and i cant seem to dodge them. hopefully my mind will shut up and ill fall asleep soon enough